Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Oh Happy Day...

Today was one of those days that was just... well, happy. I just felt good from the inside out and got so much accomplished. I think it was because it was a full on sunny day from start to finish. And the first 60 degree day of spring. Nice!! It's amazing what a difference the sun can make to my overall feeling and attitude. I am a person that should have one of those therapeutic sun lamps in her home. A lot of cloudy days I just don't have my normal energy and don't feel like doing anything. If I had one of those lamps then I could pop under that for 15 minutes and recharge my battery. It still wouldn't be quite the same as the real thing though I'm sure.

I hope all of you had a great day too, if not, there's always tomorrow!

Monday, March 27, 2006


This is the exact word that I kept thinking in my head tonight after work.

You see, I went for my first rollerblade excursion of the season and it was so fun! A lot of hard work, don't get me wrong, but fun work. I seem to forget over the course of the winter months how nice it is to get out there and fly around on my wheels with the wind in my hair. You do have to be careful and watch the path in front of you though. Even the smallest branch or pebble can send you on a "flight" that you didn't intend to go on.

I went down to my favorite park to blade the bike path there. The air was just slightly cool which is a good thing for rollerblading because I get pretty warm from the workout. The sun was setting with just enough light left to lead my path. The geese were hanging out having a lot of conversations that were fun to listen to. What a great way to end my Monday workday!!

Saturday, March 25, 2006

Online Dating...

Well folks, I have recently given in and tried online dating. I have been told (somewhat pressured) by some people that I should give it a try since I am still single "at my age." At my age...yes, I know, I am getting old. Just say it though, don't try and sugar coat it with a lame phrase.

It just seems really sad to me that at 34 years old I still haven't met a good man. No, I can't say that, because I have met a good man. I know a good man that I am interested in but he doesn't feel the same toward me. So, I will rephrase and say, I think it is sad that "at my age" I haven't met a good man that I am interested in that feels the same way.

So, now I finally give in and try online dating, and what happens today? I hear from a 20 year old guy in Moorhead, MN. OK, first problem, TWENTY YEARS OLD, what, come on. I could almost be his mother - if I had been promiscuous at 14 years old and gotten myself in trouble. (It happens, but thankfully not to me.) Second problem, he is 200 miles away. So now I am supposed to travel 200 miles to have a torrid affair with my, barely legal, 20 year old boyfriend. Ha, I don't think so, sorry dude.

My first thought when I saw his age is, "this has got to be a joke right. He and his college buddies are just having a good laugh at the expense of the poor lonely old lady on the internet." Who knows, but whatever the truth, it is making me feel kinda pathetic right now. Why am I online dating? I don't know! I guess it's a part of the world we live in now but I'm not sure how long it is going to last for me. I am thinking about getting rid of my "profile" already. What's a lonely old lady to do??

Friday, March 24, 2006

What did you give up?

It is that Lenten time of year again! Lent is such a good practice of self discipline.

As a Lutheran I didn't actually give up anything, but I have been thinking that I should. It seems a little late to start now, but maybe as a beginner this would be a good way to break myself in. Better late than never - does that work here too?

One of my friends said that she gave up fast food and is finding it very difficult to stick to some days. Those quick easy lunches on the run are the most missed. She has been a good Catholic and stuck to her commitment though.

What did you give up?

I think I would have to go with chocolate as my first sacrifice. I just really love it way to much and crave it quite often. I would do OK at home because I try not to buy any chocolate so I don't have the temptation so readily available. However, at work it is a different story. There is always food, including chocolate sitting around staring you in the face. That would be my big challenge!

So here, on my blog, for all of you to read, I am declaring that I give up chocolate from now until the end of Lent. Friends and family please be helpful and supportive when I am around you! : )

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Bone Marrow...

A few years ago I went to a blood drive where they were taking samples of blood from those volunteering in order to add more people to the bone marrow registry. All it consisted of was a tiny poke with a needle and a couple seconds of my time. This ever so small effort on my part has allowed them to add my information to the registry. The registry helps them find if I am a match for someone that needs a bone marrow donation. If I was a match I could help save someone's life. That's pretty amazing!

I tend to forget that my information is on the registry until they write me, about once a year, to confirm that my contact information is still correct. Or I will see something on TV or read a story in the newspaper that reminds me how important that bone marrow registry is.

I don't pretend to know all the details on this subject but I do know that the more people that they have information for on the registry the better chance they have of finding life saving matches. So today I ask everyone who might read this blog to take a couple minutes of your time to donate a blood sample and get yourself added to the registry. Then ask your family and friends to do the same thing. It might change someone's life one day.

To get information from the professionals who know what they are talking about check out www.marrow.org.

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Crazy, busy day...

Today was one of those days at work with tons to do but no time to do it. Yet, it turned out to be a really good day.

Around all of the other things going on I did manage to get a deadline project done. Said project had me a little stressed out so it felt good to get that under control.

In the middle of the crazy day I had a great conversation with a really good friend at lunch, so that made me happy.

Then after work I went for a heart pumpin walk in the crisp fresh air with another good friend. That felt great and got me ready to relax for the night.

What a crazy, busy, overall really good day!! :)

Monday, March 20, 2006


Kinda sounds kinky or something, doesn't it? It's not though, I promise. It means that today we have the same amount of daylight as darkness. The first official day of spring. Yeeeeeeeeehaaaaaaaaaa!

Spring is beginning to sprung, errrr, well you know what I mean. Soon the grass will be turning green, the trees will be getting their leaves, the flowers will begin to bloom into color and the warmer weather will be descending upon us! Can you tell this is making me happy? I sure hope so!

I went for a walk this evening, and even though it wasn't all that warm, I saw a lot of people out and about being active. I guess we are all ready for the start of the new season. Spring, we welcome you with open arms!!

Sunday, March 19, 2006

An apology to mom...

Something (I can't remember what now) set my brain to thinking about my teenage years. I was remembering how emotional, crabby and downright difficult I was for a while going through all of those hormonal changes in my body, and not being able to control it. As I was remembering, all I could think of was POOR MOM. You got the brunt of all of the great "joy and happiness" (ha) that I exuded most days at the time. I'm so sorry!

As a single working mom raising two crazy daughters you must have wondered how you were going to make it through the day sometimes. I just wanted to say thanks for sticking with us and still loving your daughters even though we caused you grey hair.

Today you get the "Mother of a Lifetime Award" from me, your youngest pain in the butt. Congratulations on making it through those years with your sanity intact. You are, and always have been, my inspiration for being a strong woman who can handle what the world throws at her. Love ya lots!!

Saturday, March 18, 2006

Working at home...

My coworker's computer died this week which has forced us to find creative ways of working around the problem until it gets fixed or replaced. We were trying to "share" my work computer but that's pretty tough to do when, as designers, we both work completely on a computer for at least 8 hours a day.

I suggested that I have a perfectly good computer, with all of the necessary programs, just sitting idle at home. At first we thought about having me try to bring the computer into the office, but it's not a laptop, so that would have been a pain. Since I have email and internet and could be in constant contact, we decided that I would try working from home.

I worked from home Thursday and Friday and will be again on Monday and possible more days after that. It has been great and worked out well! I have wondered in the past if I would have the discipline to concentrate and actually work from home. Yes, I do! I really enjoyed the peace and quiet and comforts of being at home while still getting my work done. I don't think that I would want to do it all of the time at this point in my life because it could get lonely and then I would have hardly any contact with the outside world. However, part-time or some days here and there would be just fine. I like knowing that this type of work situation is a good possibility in case I ever did decide to work from home for whatever reason. I know I could do it and would like it.

Friday, March 17, 2006


I thought this was so funny. My sister sent me a link to a video on CNN.com that is about the website listed above. It is a whole site devoted to exposing cheaters, bad boyfriends, scary men etc. You can go and type in a name, city or state of a man and see if there is any listings for him that would warn you not to date him and why. Genius! These are some smart women that started this site. I tried both Bismarck and North Dakota and there was only 2 listings for North Dakota and none for Bismarck. Guess word of the site hasn't spread this far north yet. Don't fret men, you aren't being left out of the fun, they are developing dontdateherman.com right now.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006


Well, I am 34 years old now.

I thought that this day was going to bother me and make me sad that I am officially older. However, I feel really good. It isn't bothering me at all, in fact I seem to have found some inner peace with myself. I went to get my driver's license renewed since it expired today, which is normally depressing with such a BEAUTIFUL picture being taken, but even that didn't dampen my spirits. I may be older but I am healthy, happy, have a good life and really have nothing to complain about so all is well in Dawn's world! Hallelujah!

p.s. Did you see the gorgeous full moon tonight? AWESOME! I tried to take a picture but it didn't work out. I hope you saw the real thing!

Monday, March 13, 2006

I am so not a normal female,

when it comes to shopping anyway. I really NEED some things that I have to go buy at the mall and I can't seem to talk myself into it. For a few weeks now I have known that I was going to have to make this shopping trip. I keep telling myself, well maybe one day this week I will get down there, then the week is gone and I haven't been anywhere near the mall. So I say, well maybe this weekend I can go. Nope, doesn't happen. Then a new week begins and the same cycle continues. What's up with that? I am a female, I have all of the girl parts, so shopping should be ingrained in me right? hmmmmmmm, I guess not. Oh well. Once I have actually gotten myself into the mall I'm sure I will be fine, in fact, I will probably end up finding and spending more than I intended. Maybe that's why I can't get myself to go - my subconscious is stopping me from being "crazy spendy girl." Nah, just kidding, I can't spend what I don't have. Wish me luck!

Sunday, March 12, 2006

Multi-tasking in the modern era...

I had one of those nights a couple of weeks ago that just made me laugh.

I was text messaging with a friend, while having 3 different IM conversations with 4 people, while writing on my blog, while catching bits and pieces of a TV show that was on behind me. (And I actually kept all of the conversations straight too.) When I stopped to realize what I was doing I just had to giggle.

With all of the "techno" ways to communicate these days it is so easy to "talk" to others while accomplishing so much more. Welcome to the 2000's!!

Friday, March 10, 2006

We awoke to such a pretty snow this morning that I had to try and capture it.

Thursday, March 09, 2006

Wednesday, March 08, 2006


I have to say that I am sometimes embarrassed by my fellow females (and males) of the world.

There are a few women at work that constantly stand in the hallways and gossip, gossip, gossip. It's not just for a minute or two, it goes on for 10, 15, 20 minutes at a time. It really drives me nuts. Don't they have ANYTHING better to be doing?

I certainly can't say that I have never taken part in gossip. Of course I have. (I hang my head in shame.) I do put myself in the shoes of the person being talked about though, and feel bad. I know that I have been the topic of discussion in gossip groups before and it hurts!!

NO person is perfect but that's what makes us who we are. Try to appreciate those imperfections instead of ridiculing them.

We humans can be so cruel to each other. It makes me sad!

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Progression of a beautiful sunset tonight from my front door.

What a great sight and sound...

The last couple of days I have seen many geese V formations making their way back to the north country for summer. That is such a great sight and (honk, honk) sound each year about this time. It makes me smile every time.

Welcome back geese, it's great to have you home.

Monday, March 06, 2006

Why do I have to work...

If I could just be happy living as a homeless drifter things would be so much easier.

I REALLY don't want to work right now! It is nice outside and I am stuck in my office, bored out of my mind with the work laying in front of me. Ho hum. I would love to just walk out the door sayin "Sorry, I don't feel like working right now so I'm not going to. I will see you tomorrow if I feel like working then, K." Oh yeah, that would be good and fun!!

It's just too bad for me that I love having my house and car and other worldly possessions. I guess I have put myself in this cycle of need for money, which means I need a job, so I had better stop complaining now and get back to work! Ho hum : )

Saturday, March 04, 2006

List of Goals to Accomplish Before I Die...

I have heard several times throughout my life that each person should have a list of goals that they want to accomplish before dying. This is so that you remember why you are living and working so hard. I don't have that many things on my list yet because I have tried to be discriminating and list only items that are important to me. I thought it would be good to have these things posted so I can look back often and remind myself.

1. Go to all 4 major tennis opens: Wimbledon, Australian Open, U.S. Open, and French Open.
2. Travel: Each of the above tennis opens has the added bonus of also going under this category because it would include traveling to new places.
3. Be Debt Free: I would love to go back to a life free of debt one day. I am dreamin' BIG here remember!! :)
4. Live by Water: I have always wanted to live right by water, so I can look out my windows and see the tranquility, and step out my door to walk or sit on the beach. Heaven!
Song lyrics I can relate to...

I may not be so lucky in love
But the one thing I'm sure of
I want a man that stands beside me
Not in front of or behind me
Give me two arms that want to hold me, not own me
And I'll give all the love in my heart
Stand beside me
Be true, don't tell lies to me
I'm not lookin' for a fantasy
I want a man who stands beside me

Artist: Jo Dee Messina
Song Title: Stand Beside Me
Album: I'm Alright

Friday, March 03, 2006

I copied this from another blog that I frequent. I enjoyed reading those answers so I thought I would answer too. You should do the same!!

Name: Dawn Michelle
Birthday: March 14, 1972
Birthplace: Bismarck, ND
Current Location: Bismarck, ND
Eye Color: greenish/brownish
Hair Color: dark blond/light brown
Height: 5'4"
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right
Your Heritage: German/Irish (and stubborn as a mule)
The Shoes You Wore Today: black slip-ons for work
Your Weakness: being too shy would be one of them
Your Fears: never feeling true love
Your Perfect Pizza: A&B House Special - yum!
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Do something I've never done before
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: LOL or hehe (but I like to laugh)
Thoughts First Waking Up: really depends on the day
Your Best Physical Feature: eyes I think
Your Bedtime: weekdays: 10-11, weekends: whenever the urge strikes
Your Most Missed Memory: The big family gatherings in Jamestown for the major holidays
Pepsi or Coke: Coke, but very seldom
McDonalds or Burger King: Ummmm, I guess Burger King
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate all the way
Cappuccino or Coffee: both
Do you Smoke: NO!!!!
Do you Swear: guilty, sorry
Do you Sing: even though I probably shouldn't, yes
Do you Shower Daily: can't think of the last time I missed one, so yes
Have you Been in Love: no
Do you want to go to College: done
Do you want to get Married: you bet
Do you belive in yourself: in most ways, but sadly not all
Do you get Motion Sickness: I sure did growing up, hasn't happened for a long time though.
Do you think you are Attractive: ugh, I suppose I have my days
Are you a Health Freak: I like to exercise but my eating leaves a lot of room for improvement
Do you get along with your Parents: yep
Do you like Thunderstorms: I really do
Do you play an Instrument: no, but I have always wanted to take piano lessons
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yeah, a couple drinks
In the past month have you Smoked: no
In the past month have you been on Drugs: no
In the past month have you gone on a Date: Does going out to eat with my sister count? If not, no.
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: actually no
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: nope, haven't had any oreos for a long time
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: never
In the past month have you been on Stage: oh no
In the past month have you been Dumped: no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: burrrrrrrr, no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: I sure don't think so, unless I walked off with someone's pen or something like that
Ever been Drunk: yes
Ever been called a Tease: Not to my face
Ever been Beaten up: by my big sister, oh yeah
Ever Shoplifted: yeah, I took the dare as a stupid kid
How do you want to Die: with everything intact so any of my needed organs can be donated
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: Good question, I still ponder that quite often.
What country would you most like to Visit: Boy, there are a lot since I have never left the U.S. Australia or Ireland would be at the top of the list I think.
Weight: yeah right, good try
Best Clothing Style: whatever is comfortable and hopefully looks decent
Number of Drugs I have taken: zero
Number of CDs I own: gosh, I will guess around 150
Number of Piercings: four
Number of Tattoos: one
Number of things in my Past I Regret: There's a few but I couldn't say a number for sure.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

I wish...

I wish for a lot of things, but my focus today has been on my "life plan." I was reading the passage of the day on a prayer calendar that I received from church and it said: "You are God's masterpiece, created anew in Jesus Christ (Ephesians 2:10). Your life has true meaning and purpose as you carry out His will for you. Give thanks for the way He loving guides your path through life."

I am thankful for my life (and love to hear I am a masterpiece, wow, see previous days post) but I am sometimes really lost and confused about my path through life. I guess it doesn't feel like I am being guided, I pretty much feel like I am free falling most days, completely out of control. Is what I am doing, and who I am, really what God wants of me? Does my life have true meaning and purpose? I don't feel like I am doing or being anything special. Maybe that is exactly who and what I am supposed to be though? It just doesn't seem like it is anything near enough! It definitely makes me hope that the best of me is yet to come.

I wish that I had a "playbook" of my life, sent down from God, that I could follow along in as I carry out His will for me. Then maybe I could understand the meaning and purpose of what is happening (or lack of things happening) right now as related to what is to come. I suppose that would be like cheating on the biggest test of your life - that being your ACTUAL life. It would take all of the spirit out us if we had no surprises and knew what ups and downs were coming next I suppose. So, I will continue to fumble through my life, hoping that I am doing the right things. As I am being so discreetly guided I will try putting my full faith in God that I am here, living this life, for a very good meaning and purpose!

Amen! :)

Wednesday, March 01, 2006


What is it that attracts us to one another? I used to think that it was mostly the physical aspects that were the main attractors. Now however, maybe with age and more wisdom (I hope), I know that it is the things inside that matter so much more.

I certainly don't look like the so called beautiful people that are all over magazines, television, movies etc. Tall, thin, statuesque and gorgeous. No. I am short, stocky, and mostly unimpressive as far as I can tell. I do think that I have a lot of the good stuff inside though. It's too bad that more people don't get past the outside appearance and get to the "juicy center" of others. You just never know what treasures you might find there! Ya know what I mean?